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G Ma's New Direction

A few months ago I discovered ExerciseTV and immediately began doing a new workout every night for two months. Unfortunately, ExerciseTV is now a premium cable service and I do not wish to pay Time Warner for the pleasure of this once free service.

However, I did discover the 10 Pound Xtreem Slimdown program from Chris Freytag. I love it! For 28 days I workout everyday for 40 to 70 minutes, each week has a different focus and each and every workout is challenging. And every morning I feel great! My muscles are sore, my body is toned and I am losing weight again!

To keep myself accountable I will be posting each day on Facebook. Nothing special, just the day number, which workout and how it went. So far Yoga is not really a favorite. Wow, I never knew how difficult it is to stand in such ridiculous looking poses. Tonight I did skip the workout to go skiing. It was so much fun though. I finally tried going fast on purpose and I loved it! Well, I was scared out of my mind but upon review I loved it and will try that fast thing again.

On another note something very special has happened in my family's lives. Many of you are Facebook friends with my son and already know this but he is a father. We just got official word this past week. I am now a grandmother. This gives me even more inspiration to stay healthy and active. I want to be around for a long, long time. To see her grow up and share uncountable memories with her. It is very strange, I haven't held her yet but my heart longs to shower her with love and my mind races with things I want to do with her, show her, and teach her.

The only time we were able to see Erica was in the incubator at about 2 week old and only 3 pounds.

She is now 6 months and I can hardly wait to hold her.


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Dec. 2nd, 2011

I am about to admit something that is rather embarrassing and even a little bit painful to say out loud or in this case write down for anyone to read. I have done something that I would rather not admit, something that will appear desperate to some, perhaps even pathetic. But I did it. And I’m coming clean. I joined e-Harmony.

There. It’s out there and I can’t get it back. Anyone who cares to know will know now. I can’t stop them from reading this. It’s a public posting.

Seriously, I joined because I’m finally thin and I feel great about myself and a friend told me I should. As soon as she said it I knew she was right. It’s time to get out there and see what happens. So with an overwhelming feeling of panic I had some friends over for a fill out the questionnaire night. It took four hours to answer page after page of personality questions! Then when we thought we were all finished I had to answer essay questions. By the time I finished the first six questions my session had timed out and I lost all the perfectly worded answers to the internet abyss. Second time through was much faster but not so perfect any more. By the time we finish it was nearly 11PM and we were too tired to bother looking at my first seven matches.

Eagerly at dawn (well closer to 8AM), I signed on to see what my options were. To my surprise there were now 14 matches. Wow, that was a lot. I started looking through. A few were too old; a few too young, a few lived too far away. But some seemed just right. The panic returned with a vengeance. What do I do now? Call me old fashioned but, I’ve always felt the man should make the first move and I always was terrible flirt. Not meaning I did it all the time, meaning I was really bad at it. Ok, ok, ok…um…oh I’ll use the Icebreaker tab. So I send out one icebreaker. Icebreakers are pre-worded sayings you can use to…well…break the ice. No response from that guy. What-EV-err!

But the next morning seven more matches were waiting for me and seven more the morning after that and seven more the morning after that and so on and so on and so on. Pretty soon I couldn’t keep up with them and for a week I refused to even sign on. I currently have 141 new matches and no hope of ever reading all their profiles to find someone with potential. While all this is going on I started receiving Icebreakers of my own.  Oh, how exciting! Only for some reason the men that wanted get to know me lived in places like Indiana or Canada. What the heck?! I must have missed something because I wanted to meet local men. When I checked my settings it turned out I had answered that location was only somewhat important. Opps! Switch that now! I now receive four new matches a day and that is completely manageable. However, I still can’t seem to whittle that new matches pile down below 130.

Since then I’ve received several promising Icebreakers and e-mails. I’ve even sent a few of my own. I still feel nauseous every time but maybe one day I’ll find Mister Right. And then all this nausea would be worth it! Kind of doubt it, but I keep trying.

And I go through all this because finding single eligible men locally is nearly impossible. You’d think that it would be easy, but no! Have you seen what’s out there? I have, and I’m here to tell you, it’s scary. I’d really like someone to tell me why the men I do not find attractive are the only ones with enough nerve to ask me out. Sigh. But that’s another blog… 

Fitness & Other Adventures

I've always wanted to join a boot camp workout program. So I did. I've been working my tush off two nights a week in class and three nights a week on my own for seven weeks now and I have to say I really love it. Oh, I complain and whine, "I don't wanna go." But once I'm there and working, I love it. The first week I couldn't even do one push up or any sit ups. It was sad. I was so ticked, too. You may remember one of my goals this year was to pass the Army Fitness Test, and push up and sit ups are part of the test. But this week I did two reps of 25 push ups and two reps of nine sit ups. Soooooo excited!

Even better! It was fight night in Karate this week! I can honestly say my arms feel stronger and I wasn't so afraid to spar with the guys. We all take turns sparing with each other while everyone watches, cheers and offers advice. They love fighting with Cassie, she's really good. She's not afraid to throw someone on the floor or slam them up against the wall. Then, when she let's them up, she congratulates them on what they did well. Everyone laughs when she and I fight. Cause, let's face it who wouldn't want to have a fist fight with your parent or kid now and then. Cassie told me later that our Sensi whispered to her during one of my fights that I was really improving lately and he was so proud of me. He doesn't just throw around compliments so that was high praise and I was honored to hear it. But best of all, I made Cassie bleed! My hook punches must be improving because I didn't even know I hit her and she didn't know she was bleeding!


It's truly amazing what good health does for you. I can remember when I was fat just going upstairs seemed like too much effort. At one point I would get out of breath going downstairs. Sad. I vow never to let laziness take over my life again. I am having so much fun and living every day to the fullest. Even if "the fullest" is simply enjoying time with family or reading a good book.  Every challenge, every exciting idea and every possible memory making event inspires me to keep going.

And a special note to my two workout buddies, Faith and Debbie. Thanks for your company and whether you believe it or not you are inspiring me to work harder and longer. Thanks!

Four weeks to the Turkey Trot! Hope to see you there!

Priceless!

1 weekend camping trip with great people. +

I set up an awesome camping environment, earning the nickname Feng Shui.   +

1 friend falls out of the tent on night one. Scrapes up knee, shin, wrist, forearm, lands on two pine cones and gets kicked in the stomach by a pair of rain boots sitting outside the door. Earning her the nickname Tent Tripper.    +

3 friends swept off their feet and carried down the Hudson in what felt like a near death experience, while on a not so lazy "lazy river" tubing adventure. One of them is too small to reach the water while in her tube, earning her the nickname T-Rex.   +

Finding an awesome new place for lunch after incredibly fun near death experience. Nothing makes food taste better than a near death experience. T-Rex demanded "Bring me a Velociraptor! I'm starving!" But we decided subs were a more universal choice.   +

Sitting around the fire till late in the night.  +

Waking up to the smell of bacon and camp fire!  +

Hiking through the woods and getting a little lost.    +

Finally finding the beach and just laying in the sun to read a book.   +

Realizing it's going to rain...hard...   +

Scrambling to wrap tarps around the sun shelters.   +

LIghtning flashes, thunder rolls, rain gets in anyway.    +

Kung Fu Panda (Cassie) gets the fire started in the rain!   +

Rain let's up Kung Fu Panda and T-Rex go puddle jumping.    +

Lightning hits 50 feet from where we sit!    +

KFP and T-Rex scream!!!!  Fung Shui and Tent Tripper decide to go home!!!    +

Throw everything into two sedans, arrive home at 10PM and put all of it on the front porch.   +

Showers for everyone, and sleep in the living room on air mattresses to continue camping for the night.   +

Thunderstorms continue through the night.   +

Wake up to sunny skies. Grrr.    +

Spread out the wet stuff to dry and clean, clean, clean.   +

Rains again, run, run, run to get the partially dry stuff back on the porch!   +

Sitting down to reminisce about a great weekend.  PRICELESS

Hurricane Irene

We're stuck in the house for the day because Hurricane Irene is visiting the eastern seaboard this weekend. I count myself lucky as so far the only inconvenience has been our camping trip with my nephews was cut short. I've been passing the time searching the internet for new places to find low calorie, great tasting foods. A friend told me about http://www.hungry-girl.com/ and I love it! Found several great recipes including Garlicy Mashed Potatoes made with butternut squash and cauliflower. I can't wait to try this version of one of my pre-surgery favorites!

Summer is coming to an end and for the first time in years I don't have evening classes to fill up every moment of my time for the next sixteen weeks. I am both dreading and looking forward to this free time. Maybe now I can get some of my new home projects done. Such as I planned to paint the basement walls when we moved in. I even bought the paint. We've been here thirteen months and the walls are still white. I'm sure everyone has lists like these. Honestly, I don't want to finish my to do lists, they keep me going, give me a since of accomplishment when I can check off one of the lines. However, I do have trouble prioritizing those lists. Weeding the flower beds makes them look great but I should have had the car's oil changed first. That way when we decided to go on a trip to Philadelphia for the weekend we could have just left. Instead of putting it off for another week.


I've been having the same trouble trying to decide what I want to concentrate on while working out. I love the idea of a boot camp, I enjoy running, I also enjoy working on the Army Fitness Training but I'm getting frustrated. I want to see results...now!  I've worked so hard to lose all this weight and I want to keep moving forward. I feel a little stuck right now. I've gained and lost the same ten pounds for six months. I'm between two sizes, one is too big and the other is too tight! I am excited that I can now buy pretty "undergarments" instead of the strictly functional variety! It's amazing what that can do for self confidence!

I know the truth of the matter is to keep working and the results will arrive. I'll try new recipes, switch up my workout routine and find a work out partner. If you have any ideas for something new to try I'd love to hear about them! I think I just getting bored with the same old, same old.

Bucket, Goals and Resolutions

I've made some progress and it's time to update! Way back in February and March I said the following...

 

February 2011

Before the end of summer 2011 I want to do as many of the following activities as possible. If you would like to join me in any of them leave a comment and I'll be sure to include you on the fun!

 

1. Go rafting and tubing at Ausable Chasm or someplace else with an equally magnificent view.
Doing this tomorrow with my awesome kids!! Can't wait!!

2. Run a full three miles. And train my dog not to trip me while we're doing it!
Ran the Friehoffer's Run For Woman in 41 minutes. After that I sprained my ankle and haven't been running much. But I can walk three miles in less than 50 minutes and Oscar hardly ever trips me anymore!

3. Compete in the Warrior Dash on August 13th in Windham, NY
Yeah, not gonna happen. Waited too long to register and I'm not paying $65 for the "privilege"

4. Finish my degree!
DONE!!!

5. Go camping, a lot!
CHECK!!!

6. Spend four  days at the beach!
Two so far. Two more planned!

7. Begin training for a half marathon. (I don't want to run in one just yet, I scared)
Refer to number 2.

8. Visit some awesome amusement parks. Anywhere!
Not yet. :(

9. Climb a mountain
DID IT! And it was awesome!

10. Visit old friends and family. I miss you guys. :(
Just got home from there!


March 2011

Time to re-think my goals. No wait! I'm going to add to them with conditions.
1. I'm going to read the New Testament one chapter a day. Not just to say I've done it but because I want a better understanding of who God is and who HE says I am.
Time to start!
2. School stays the same, if I don't finish this semester I'm seriously going to go nuts! I want out so I can do what really motivates me!
See number 4 above!

3. Exercise...hmm...who would have thought I miss running? Well, that will have to be my focus here. I will purchase a treadmill to put next to my exercise bike (which does not cut it when all you really want to do is run), so I can run and study at the same time, rain or shine. I'll work on the ARMY F Test after I graduate.
See number 2 above. Also, I now have a surgical hernia. That often happens after weight loss surgery. Push ups and crunches can aggravate a hernia so I'm just happy to be moving right now.

4. Be more yielded to God's leading. I truly felt God wanted me to share something with a classmate last week. I'm not kidding you I was shaking just thinking about it. We had never spoken before so I prayed and asked God to make this person begin a conversation with me first. AND HE DID! I was really hoping I had imagined the whole thing. After I shared what I thought God was showing me he completely confirmed everything I said and he and his wife had been talking about that very subject for several weeks. I was on Cloud 9! It's one thing to talk to people at church about what God is showing you but to tell a complete stranger! SCARY!
One day at a time.

Most Importantly
5. I will take each moment, hour and day one at a time, allowing God to care for me. Because when I don't they pile up and crush my heart and lungs. I feel as though I'm suffocating and my heart will never slow down, the very earth I stand on tilts and I fall to pieces.
Not so crushed anymore. The earth doesn't tilt and I have a good grip!

How are your summer plans going?
 


God is doing something!

  So here is the new me. The one I have worked toward for over a year and have realized will need constant care for it's lifetime. Physically, I like the way I look and feel great. (Thanks everyone for the awesome compliments on FB) Mentally and spiritually, I've been a wreck. This new body changed me in ways I wasn't ready for. I feel as if the new outside should reflect a new inside to match, but the inside has been slow to catch up. Maybe it's my thought process? I spend so much time thinking about what, when and how much to eat or when will I have time to workout again that the important issues seem to have slipped past me. My goal this year is to read though the New Testament, finish my degree, pass the ARMY physical fitness test and run a half marathon in the fall. So far I've read exactly six chapters of Romans, reached the college midterm with a 4.0 average, I can do 15 girly push ups, no full sit ups and haven't run at all.

Time to re-think my goals. No wait! I'm going to add to them with conditions.
1. I'm going to read the New Testament one chapter a day. Not just to say I've done it but because I want a better understanding of who God is and who HE says I am.
2. School stays the same, if I don't finish this semester I'm seriously going to go nuts! I want out so I can do what really motivates me!
3. Exercise...hmm...who would have thought I miss running? Well, that will have to be my focus here. I will purchase a treadmill to put next to my exercise bike (which does not cut it when all you really want to do is run), so I can run and study at the same time, rain or shine. I'll work on the ARMY F Test after I graduate.
4. Be more yielded to God's leading. I truly felt God wanted me to share something with a classmate last week. I'm not kidding you I was shaking just thinking about it. We had never spoken before so I prayed and asked God to make this person begin a conversation with me first. AND HE DID! I was really hoping I had imagined the whole thing. After I shared what I thought God was showing me he completely confirmed everything I said and he and his wife had been talking about that very subject for several weeks. I was on Cloud 9! It's one thing to talk to people at church about what God is showing you but to tell a complete stranger! SCARY!
Most Importantly
5. I will take each moment, hour and day one at a time, allowing God to care for me. Because when I don't they pile up and crush my heart and lungs. I feel as though I'm suffocating and my heart will never slow down, the very earth I stand on tilts and I fall to pieces.

I was prayed for a lot this weekend. A lot of things were said to me that I know are true. It's time to let God unravel what has been tying me up and allow him to cut the cords that have kept me bound. And like a butterfly open the cocoon and emerge transformed. Both inside and out. If you've read my blog for long you know some of what haunts me. If your a close friend you know it all! I won't go into all that again, there isn't room or time right now. But a change has taken place inside of me this weekend and I hope it will be evident to all very soon.

Valentine's Day or Cupid is Stupid?



Valentine's Day or Cupid is Stupid?

So it's Valentine's Day, which is stupid. In all of my forty years I only have one romantic memory tied to an actual Valentine's Day, and looking back it's not even a top ten night. I feel love should be celebrated daily. People should know how you feel before you need to tell them. If you really need a day to celebrate love how about your anniversary? I may sound bitter and unloved, oh boo hoo (not really I'm fine). What bothers me the most is watching young women putting all their hopes on hearing from that one guy they've had their eye on and whatever happens doesn't meet their expectations. I hate watching them put all their happiness in someone else's hands. Usually, someone who doesn't deserve it, someone that sees them as a target and not a treasure. So often they give their hearts away just to feel special for a moment.

The media doesn't help! We are told buy this so you can be beautiful, buy that so people will like you, buy these to show how much you care. It never ends. We are taught to spend money to feel good about ourselves and to show affection, but it's never enough to last a lifetime. We constantly need more. There is no contentment in worldly things.

Only God can fill the hole that eats away at our security, and allows others to treat us like targets instead of treasures to be sought after and greatly valued. I am amazed everyday at the lengths He has gone to just to get my attention. It's CRAZY LOVE! and that's the perfect Valentine's Day gift.
 
If you haven't read Crazy Love by Francis Chan I highly recommend it. It has challenged my formerly pathetic response to God's love and made me want to change the world.

Tonight I was promoted to Brown Belt 3 in Okinawan Karate! My last promotion was to Purple Belt in 2009 and I weighed over 330 pounds. What a difference 19 months and 150 pounds makes!

Purple Belt Promotion May 2009                                                      Brown Belt Promotion Jan 2011

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Before the end of summer 2011 I want to do as many of the following activities as possible. If you would like to join me in any of them leave a comment and I'll be sure to include you on the fun!

 

1. Go rafting and tubing at Ausable Chasm or someplace else with an equally magnificent view.

2. Run a full three miles. And train my dog not to trip me while we're doing it!

3. Compete in the Warrior Dash on August 13th in Windham, NY

4. Finish my degree!

5. Go camping, a lot!

6. Spend four  days at the beach!

7. Begin training for a half marathon. (I don't want to run in one just yet, I scared)

8. Visit some awesome amusement parks. Anywhere!

9. Climb a mountain

10. Visit old friends and family. I miss you guys. :(

I'll keep adding to this list so check back and feel free to make suggestions!

By the way I passed my Brown Belt test! Promotion is next week I'll post some pics then!!!